move on

finally i have decided to end my sabbatical
these two words 'move on' have been giving me hell for the past month forcing me to thing what went wrong after all the questions which i ha long forgotten resurface again. why me? i had tried but obviously it lacked everywhere
The past month was as eventful as it could be i experienced all emotions
Euphoria of exams getting over .....
A memorable trip to nainital with friends....
Sister's wedding in delhi..... which is the second wedding i ever attended in my life what an eventful affair i can write endlessly about it
Meeting long lost relatives who turn up only on weddings
Exam results being declared....W.O.W.
my birthday which as always is a forgetful affair
laptop seized....pocketmoney halved
numb eyes heavy heart lump in the throat ....vacations ended
late for registration paid the fine ...thanx to indian railways
the only solution is grades
the question is not can i? but will i work hard ?
the only consolation i can propose is forget the past move on start all over again but don't let history repeat itself.
what a mess i am in totally completly neck deep in quicksand...........