Neev

please if anyone has the link to download 'neev' give it to me i will be very grateful
Neev is a sit com aired on doordarshan in 80's

dearth

if i can pull it through today i an pull myself out of everything

life is never fair for me
luck has gone on a sabbatical

confessions of an absent minded maverick

honest confessions which prove how careless i am and the amount of carelessness one afford to have against his name

1.My cell phone i always manage to leave it behind be it my room or some odd eatery. have lost two in 2 years fingers crossed :)

2.My almari is always open and once it so happened a friend of mine hid some perfumes of mine and i didn't even realize they are missing until he told me after a week.

3.My wallet is always in my desk drawer. i have to face lot of heat because of that :(

4. I went to give the NLSIU exam and on the gates of the center i realized i have forgotten my admit card at home! called up dad and he faxed it to me . so finally started the exam 25 minutes late thence no chance of clearing it (sigh)

5.Parked my car on the slope without pulling the handbrake... hehe luckily no one was hurt neither the car

6.Didn't give my english preboard because sitting through 3 hours was too much.
My housemaster called mum but you know how persuasive i can be , i got out clean :P

7. Two fingers of my left foot was fractured and i ran 4.5 kms crosscountry :oops and finished well in time.

let's leave it at seven considering it is a very auspicious number hope it puts some sense in me
PS: for this post the inspiration comes from a dear friend who managed to lock herself out of her car not once but thrice :P

with love,

career has certainly become the most over rated word in today's world. when a
child is in class 6th since then he is asked or in some cases told that u have
to do this or that in life and at that time the parent sees only a future doctor,engineer in him or family business awaits him. but now times have changed. With the advent of MNC'S the whole prospect has changed now jobs are on the
front seat where the risk factor is zero assured income and no hassles of
running a business. As many times i have been told when u grow up you have
to find yourself with a good job and move to a better city i have listened
quitely never expressing my opinion maybe because backtalking to elders was considered rude but now as i stand on the brink of choosing my career ( it wud
be wrong to say this but i had been made to choose anyway no regrets now) i have chosen what i wish to do in my life. After much thinking and searching the web reading stuff i have decided that i will be an investment banker work for some
time then dad's business. how can i let it die afterall my grandfather put his heart and soul in it my father worked so hard how can i just let it go.... no i can't rather i wouldn't
As my dad says "son what is left in this city you have to move out seek the
greener pastures and live your life in a different way " what i fail to
understand is how can i leave my parents when they will need me the most and
that too just for my own sake. how much i argue with him that too no avail.
but i have decided that i won't and i shall stand by it.
Why do we live why do we earn why do we want to be happy all these questions
i can't seem to answer as per the conventional rules
happiness whom to share with ? money on whom to splurge? live for whom .?
well without family all seems to be mundane Is this what indian sanskar
is all about the indian sanskar of which we damn indians are so proud of
the joint family is dying, i've always lived in one thou and never have
imagined life without one i can live a few years in some weirdo place all
by myself but for life no. living in some weirdo place with your parents
coming over occasionally or you visiting them seems bakwaas why do we have
to go the western way what is the need can't we preserve the indian ethics
the much touted culture "hindutva" as BJP and VHP and many other hard core
parties say....
this would be the first time i will go against my parents wishes without an
ounce of regret
maybe i am a bit orthodox but so be it i can never forget what my parents have
done for me and i can never reciprocate what they have done the least i can do
is what i am doing
my father always said "son i want to be known as your father and not you
as my son"
i shall remember that dad always
happy anniversary to you both pity i am not ther to celebrate with you :(
as i tune in to 'nothing else matters' lost in the music i am indeed in heaven
i loose all my sense and sensibility :P

hmm

life can be so demanding i can't believe these days
are a complete riot i don't even have free time to write
anything once i am through with college then the assignments
ring the bell as they are about to leave there is a certain CAT
which is supposedly so hard to tame pounces upon me and then
the projects uff so much work and even then how can i forget
not breaking the stupid college rules kya kya karun and as
if its not enough visit to relatives is also necessary
otherwise how can i relish home made food.
human only!
the threat of exams is always looming over the head a threat
which can't be ward off a threat on which too much rides along .








enough crap
its just a filler i am still alive and will come up with something
soon

"A WOMAN WHO HAS IMPRESSED ME THE MOST"

MOTHER: The word itself is synonymous with infinite emotions poured out all at once. it attributes to the world the most precious and the purest relationship of mankind. according to me my mother is one woman whom i look upto and who has impressed me the most. it is our mother who brings us into this world and makes our world beautiful. i have seen and realised that at each and every step of life, my mother has been there with me to hold me, to support me and to protect me if the path ahead was cobbled up and undulated. she has always been there to tend me , to console me with her sugary piece of advice which is like a tonic for my pains, my worries, my doubts and my my questionaires.. i am not impressed by my mother only because i share an emotional attachment with her but also because of her emotional attachment with eveyone i something that i have considered before penning down and putting my mother in the category of "a woman who has impressed me the most".
going down memory lanes and reminisces, i have a coherent recollection of a few unforgettable moments which have their footprints in my mind.it so happened that my father was out of station for some work and i was quite young at that time. my mother was laid up with fever since a few days. weakness suppressed her physical and mental faculties. during this humdrum affair, the news of the arrival of some close guests was far from reassuring. within no time my mother gathered strength and did all the preparations (my help was of no avail to her). eventually the guests arrived and the flawless and the meticulous arrangements were appreciated to a great extent. my mother has never given me any lessons or any lectures. it never took her hours to explain the situation. she just performed it and it was always instilled in my mind. the message that my mother gave me after this situation was that " difficulties in our life do not come to destroy us...... but to help us realise our hidden potential. let difficulties know that we are difficult to defeat ".
another incident goes like this.............. my father was seriously ill and my younger brother was barely one month old and i, 11. as my exams were approaching, my mother had to teach me as always. my brother needed attention and my father needed help. though i do not have a detailed account of how my mother managed to beat the situation, yet i know that whatever she did and however she did is something which needs an outstanding ovation. very soon life assumed its unvaried and monotonous pitch....... years passed by...... but the memory leaves never faded away from my mind..... through this episode i came to know that my mother has always taken her responsibilities and has carried herself in such a way so as to beat all the blues. and this is something which has left me under awe. 469
the most impressive thing about my mother is her ability to convince and impress almost everyone she meets. my mother has been my best friend and will continue to do so inspite of the " generation gap" that is between us, the ability of my mother to understand me and my feelings is incredible and it leaves me spellbound. she has shaped my life- my world beautifully. the world is however very rough and harsh. but i am sure that the qualities which have been instilled in me by my mother will enable me to discern the right from the wrong, the necessary from the superflous and the truth from the false. it will definitely help me to face the world better than anyone and whatever i do, whosoever i become, wherever i go i will be able to hold my head high. considering myself as a girl my mother has been the world's best 'mother', as a student my mother has been the best teacher- my beacon of light and as an individual she has been a best human being and is responsible for instilling in me a true human spirit.
last but not the least i would sum up just by writing my mother's philosophy of life which has influenced me the most-
" listen to the exhortation of the dawn!
look to this day! for it is life,
the very life of life,
in its brief course lies all the realities of our existence:
the bliss of growth, the glory of action, the splendour of beauty,
for yesterday is but a dream and
tomorrow is only a vision:
but today well -lived makes,
every yesterday a dream of happiness and
every tomorrow a vision of hope!!
look well therefore to this day-
such is the salutation of the dawn!!!!! "


PRIYANKA BHARGAVA

Living in a dream
Absurd as it may seem
Numbing the pain
Nothing to lose or gain

Hoping our paths will cross
Again and again
Which they will eventually
When you go back to being the same

An unbreakable thread
Still continues to grow
When will it cut?
No one is to know

Again you depart
From my world to yours
Unsure of the outcome
Trying to smoothen the flaws

Like the winds
You feel you have a place to go
Not knowing it’s a façade
You still don’t really know

This dull life sickens you
You want to break free
But is it what you really want
Or is it just she?

My words need no voice
The answer you already know
Should you really leave?
No, you shouldn’t go.