uffff!!!

the day b4 yesterday was one helluva day for me such harrowing experience my god!
it all started in the morning i woke up a bit late bbut wanted to go to the physcis and communications lecture my roomate left early. when i left my bed searching for he damn
toothbrush i realized the room was locked from outside!!! of fuck i said in desperation
banged at the door then again dozed off 2 hours later i shouted "abe bihari" "darwaza khol de baahar se" voila i am a free bird
again chalo the day has begun wish me luck still lots to go then i went to the computer lab teacher to beg to plead to seek forgiveness for being late in submitting the programs. finally after 3 and a half hours of waiting and pleading for mercy i was granted my wish not to forget thanx i had a girl with me as my lab partner otherwise i wud have been screwed. then it was eve i came to the hostel in the way to my room a fren was joking with me and the price of the jokes my spectacles were broken . oh shit! i have only a single pair + rs 140 for its repairs when i am broke icing on the cake. ...................L.O.L
so i checked my wallet 100 rupees were missing
then went to the atm took out the money and shipra it is then!
did shopping and the shopkeeper charged me half it was worth oh!
came back to the hostel had a fight with some of my best frens in coll
it wasn't really a fight but just an emotional outburst rather
finally i slept with a view whic i share with scarlett O'hara
"afterall tomorrow is a new day"

umrao jaan

it has been a week since i saw umrao jaan . it was a pretty harrowing experience and left me astounding that why out of pity frenship or what ever why did i ever watch that movie . sure ash is gorgeous but a 3hour+movie it was just too much what i did in the movie was tha twatch mujras and then go back to sleep on the not so comfy pvr chairs . the aunty next me me was throwing a stern look at me and two of my frens coz all we did was joking amongst us. even the dad of the hot girl sitting behind me waved at us when v left the theatre even b4 the movie was completed .



that is besides the point i was just wondering abt the future of such umrao jaans in india thou a century has passed but the condition of women is unchanged isn't it........
i vividly remember this incident which happened 3 years back on ............
i was on the lko rail station waiting for the never on time chapra mail to take me to my school in gwalior i had waited for 3 hrs in cold 6 to 0 in the morning and was damn frustrated ...... then a poorly dressed girl in rags came up to me and with those lost dreamy eyes asked me for anything to eat ...... i just couldn't hold myself and gave her 20 bucks .............
it is so unlike me but i just did it couldn't refrain myself.
i had to she looked so fragile so beautiful so needy that i had to help her out
for me she is my umrao jaan
even more beautiful than ash

"JUST HELP THEM" AND SAVE THEM FROM SUCH A DESOLATE AND OBSOLETE FUTURE"

britney and k-fed breakup

the speculation by media is finally over they both have filed for divorce "unconscionable reasons" is the reason stated by the couple


lets see how things turn up ...........
was just wondering ....... afterall we live in a socity and gossip is our birth right

music it is!!!!

this song is very apt for me
bed of roses-bon jovi

Sitting here wasted and wounded
At this old piano
Trying hard to capture
The moment this morning I dont know
cause a bottle of vodka
Is still lodged in my head
And some blond gave me nightmares
I think shes still in my bed
As I dream about movies
They wont make of me when Im dead

With an ironclad fist I wake up and
French kiss the morning
While some marching band keeps
Its own beat in my head
While were talking
About all of the things that I long to believe
About love and the truth and
What you mean to me
And the truth is baby youre all that I need

I want to lay you on a bed of roses
For tonite I sleep on a bed on nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
And lay you down on bed of roses

Well Im so far away
That each step that I take is on my way home
A kings ransom in dimes Id given each night
Just to see through this payphone
Still I run out of time
Or its hard to get through
Till the bird on the wire flies me back to you
Ill just close my eyes and whisper,
Baby blind love is true

I want to lay you down on a bed of roses
For tonite I sleep on a bed on nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
And lay you down on bed of roses

The hotel bar hangover whiskeys gone dry
The barkeepers wigs crooked
And shes giving me the eye
I might have said yeah
But I laughed so hard I think I died

When you close your eyes
Know Ill be thinking about you
While my mistress she calls me
To stand in her spotlight again
Tonite I wont be alone
But you know that dont
Mean Im not lonely Ive got nothing to prove
For its you that Id die to defend

I want to lay you down on a bed of roses
For tonite I sleep on a bed on nails
I want to be just as close as the holy ghost is
And lay you down on bed of roses

the end of life

A Philosophy that intrigues me much more than anything else...

Should it be called the End or the Armageddon or the Metamorphosis or something else... difficult to say... requires an in depth analysis of the notions surrounding this phenomenon.

It all depends on one's approach to death itself and thus automatically comes the related issue of one's notion regarding life as well. Though it might sound strange but it is a fact that the image that one holds in his psyche regarding death is an oblique reflection of his view about life..

If one takes life to be absolute then death is reduced to a mere trivia. if we deduct 'full' from full itself then we get the 'full' back.. Confused..? Look at it this way.. we all know that the Universe comprises of everything, all that is there, and all that is not as there cannot be abything beyond this Universe. So now if we subtract this Universe from itself we get 'nothing' mathematically. But that nothing is also included in the universe as per the definition of the Universe. Therefore we get back the Universe.

Now if we take life to be such an absolute, which can transcend mere bodily existence then there cannot be a state which is beyond the scope of this life. Thus death becomes something utopian for easier analysis and superficial explanation.

seems so easy isn't it then lets all die and take the path of death why stay alive........!!

In reality there are more layers to this philosophy. I just attempt to bring out only one at this moment. In an attempt to physically substantiate life.. it can be asserted that a being or for that matter anything lives or exists in the mind of other people. If one is shoved into oblivion by someone else then no matter how much he lives bodily he is actually dead. Likewise how much one is bodily dead if others remember him there is no better way to live. Biological death is not the same as the notion of death as the notion is one which resides in one's mind and cannot be mensured by instruments or any physical 'jantra'.

Hence Death is a transformation from one state to another from one mode of perceivability to another form of perception.

as our badri sir said its a matter of perception and showed us a cool pic of a young girl,some said it was young some said old but for me she was an ailing dying woman

Death is not an Absolute...Life is the yardstick.